I could list all of the hectic things that seem to have taken over my life this week, but instead I have decided to focus on the not so crazy and more stable things. Tonight I took a bath (sorry if that is a bit too much information) but I had many wonderful thoughts while in that bath and I thought I would share them. I was sitting in hot water, listening to calming music and had a steaming glass of tea in my hand. Life was good. I was not being asked a million questions, I did not have little hands tapping me and wanting to know what time it was and when the next recess was. I did not have to take care of anyone young or old. I was alone. I was warm (which is really hard to get lately).I was a little bit uncomfortable at first, but soon I loved it.
As I was listening to the oh so calming music the lyrics that kept coming back to me where "your joy will be my strength" over and over I kept hearing it. "your joy will be my strength". Even after the song stopped and a new one came on "your joy will be my strength". Now sometimes I get really annoyed with the same words playing over and over because I mean where is the creativity it repeating yourself, but tonight it was calming. The peace that comes with knowing your joy will be my strength is overwhelming, terrifying, but also strangely exciting. Last year one of my consistent prayer requests was to find or be given joy. I think that my prayer request now is to find out what joy is, not necessarily find it or be given it but to know what it is. And to know what the Lords joy is. Not my earthly joy, but what it means to feel His joy and depend on it for strength. Friends if you have any thoughts or insight I would love to chat about it.
For now I will sit back and rest knowing that He has done and given everything we (I) need. I will continue to wonder what true joy is but I now have the peace of knowing that it is available for us.
Sweet Dreams,
Sara
No comments:
Post a Comment