I could list all of the hectic things that seem to have taken over my life this week, but instead I have decided to focus on the not so crazy and more stable things. Tonight I took a bath (sorry if that is a bit too much information) but I had many wonderful thoughts while in that bath and I thought I would share them. I was sitting in hot water, listening to calming music and had a steaming glass of tea in my hand. Life was good. I was not being asked a million questions, I did not have little hands tapping me and wanting to know what time it was and when the next recess was. I did not have to take care of anyone young or old. I was alone. I was warm (which is really hard to get lately).I was a little bit uncomfortable at first, but soon I loved it.
As I was listening to the oh so calming music the lyrics that kept coming back to me where "your joy will be my strength" over and over I kept hearing it. "your joy will be my strength". Even after the song stopped and a new one came on "your joy will be my strength". Now sometimes I get really annoyed with the same words playing over and over because I mean where is the creativity it repeating yourself, but tonight it was calming. The peace that comes with knowing your joy will be my strength is overwhelming, terrifying, but also strangely exciting. Last year one of my consistent prayer requests was to find or be given joy. I think that my prayer request now is to find out what joy is, not necessarily find it or be given it but to know what it is. And to know what the Lords joy is. Not my earthly joy, but what it means to feel His joy and depend on it for strength. Friends if you have any thoughts or insight I would love to chat about it.
For now I will sit back and rest knowing that He has done and given everything we (I) need. I will continue to wonder what true joy is but I now have the peace of knowing that it is available for us.
Sweet Dreams,
Sara
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Hi Ho, Hi Ho, It's Back to La Paz I go!!
Well it was wonderful summer full of family and friends but it was time for me to go back to work! I have only been back in La Paz for 5 days, but let me tell you it feels like it has been about 5 months!
It was much different coming back this time. I was excited and full of eagerness to get back in the country and the classroom! The flight(s) coming back here were hell and I cried in front of many strangers but the Lord heard my cry, was faithful and got me to where I needed to be. Although I still have many questions myself as to why I am here specifically (and why it is never easy getting back) I have chosen to trust that it will continue to be revealed over the next few months.
Progress! Part of it was revealed just this week! As I started unpacking my room, planning the week, catching up with friends I was confronted with the real reason I love being here and teaching at Highlands. I have a purpose. Vacations are great and full of adventure and fun, but I love having a purpose. Right now in this country I have kids to love and help learn. I have old friends and now new friends to build relationships with. I have a lot of learning to do myself that has already started, and I am sure many more things to come! It is a great feeling having a purpose, and an even better one loving what my purpose is! Although I know I will fail and run into problems I am hopeful for what this year brings. It is also exhausting, but no matter how tired I am at the end of the day I know I can go to sleep feeling as though I have served others and fulfilled what I am here to do. It is also very strange to say I love being tired, because who really does, but it is the kind of tired you feel after a really productive day, or a great workout (not that I do that a lot...ok ever).
If you are supporting me through prayer I ask for 3 continued prayers.
1. That I continue seeking my purpose.
2. That I will be able to grow without being resistant.
3. That even though I am tired I will still be listening to others and will be able to serve the best I can.
Well now that I have said the work purpose enough times to the point where it sounds like I am talking about a porpoise (man I miss the ocean already!) I am going to take my strained eyes away from the computer and try to think about things other then spelling words and where the lunch boxes will go on wednesday!
Sweet Dreams Friends,
Sara
It was much different coming back this time. I was excited and full of eagerness to get back in the country and the classroom! The flight(s) coming back here were hell and I cried in front of many strangers but the Lord heard my cry, was faithful and got me to where I needed to be. Although I still have many questions myself as to why I am here specifically (and why it is never easy getting back) I have chosen to trust that it will continue to be revealed over the next few months.
Progress! Part of it was revealed just this week! As I started unpacking my room, planning the week, catching up with friends I was confronted with the real reason I love being here and teaching at Highlands. I have a purpose. Vacations are great and full of adventure and fun, but I love having a purpose. Right now in this country I have kids to love and help learn. I have old friends and now new friends to build relationships with. I have a lot of learning to do myself that has already started, and I am sure many more things to come! It is a great feeling having a purpose, and an even better one loving what my purpose is! Although I know I will fail and run into problems I am hopeful for what this year brings. It is also exhausting, but no matter how tired I am at the end of the day I know I can go to sleep feeling as though I have served others and fulfilled what I am here to do. It is also very strange to say I love being tired, because who really does, but it is the kind of tired you feel after a really productive day, or a great workout (not that I do that a lot...ok ever).
If you are supporting me through prayer I ask for 3 continued prayers.
1. That I continue seeking my purpose.
2. That I will be able to grow without being resistant.
3. That even though I am tired I will still be listening to others and will be able to serve the best I can.
Well now that I have said the work purpose enough times to the point where it sounds like I am talking about a porpoise (man I miss the ocean already!) I am going to take my strained eyes away from the computer and try to think about things other then spelling words and where the lunch boxes will go on wednesday!
Sweet Dreams Friends,
Sara
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